Finally grounded

In the wake of numerous relationship crises amongst my friends, I have found a new sense of calm. I feel that as I witness these tales unfold in the most unfortunate of ways, I am thankful that I am not in that position. While single life can be lonely at times, it is mainly fun filled and exciting. Finding this new freedom and sense of independence has done wonders for feeling more settled and grounded in life. I have found that as days go by, I am much more alright with not knowing what direction I want to take in my career. I'm alright with trying new paths and look forward to the next adventure. While I may not have someone to hold my hand through it all, I know that I can always come home to a wet nose and wagging tail - which is all that I need at this point.

Work it out.

Dealing with bad news, disappointment, heartbreak, etc. has never been my strong suit. I'm normally the first one to head to the bar, drink, dance, and chat my way through a crisis without ever really talking about or solving the problem. Or sometimes I head out, credit card in hand and don't come home until my credit card is sighing and begging for mercy. Moderation has never been my friend.

Friday finally rolled around and I was hit with some difficult news about my mother. Her health isn't quite what it should be. My first instinct was to grab some friends, head to the bar, and drink and dance the night away. Unfortunately, or possibly fortunately, most of my friends were out of town - so I didn't go out. Which is weird. I stayed home, ordered take out, and watched trashy hulu. I did some yoga, called my mom, and tried to read a book. I've never been one to sit down and talk about my feelings, and most likely, I never will be that person. BUT! This is a step in the right direction - I did something a bit more healthy than drinking and dancing until 4am. The spending I'll work on another day.

What do you do when you're stressed?

Starting over

I have made a horrible attempt at managing this little space here. I posted one not-worth-reading entry and then erased it from memory. Well kids, here I am again, making yet another attempt at keeping up with this. I bought a pretty new macbook so maybe that will be some assistance in maintaining this. Here's hoping!

I'll be back soon with an actual worth reading (maybe) post.